I've just realised i never cleared up the story of F and P. Nothing, it seems, actually happened. I know have all the timing sorted out in my head. After P found out J had loved him, he realised he couldn't be with S any longer. This was the day before the Ace Crew Outing. So somewhere around this point P arranged to 'do things' (I wouldn't give details even if i knew them.) with F but then, once he realised he could be with J, changed his mind. Much anger ensued on F's part, revealing he'd felt betrayed all that time ago in after the incident in the toilets with J, and culminating in a bilious attempt to destroy P and J's relationship.

It feels rather good to know there's someone, relatively objective but still acquainted with P and J, who is sceptical about things between them. That someone is D, one of these people lucky enough to be obviously gay enough for people not to be surprised when they come out. He's sort of unnofficialy in charge of gay people in the school, but perhaps he underestimates people ability to cope once he's gone. Anyway, D reads my blog, and was shocked to find out these new revelations about P. He does not trust him to be sincere, accusing him of simply trying to work his way round the Ace Crew. "I don't think it's good to mess around with people's heads. It might be fun to him but to them it ain't. They are younger and, not trying to be patronising, not as grown up." I did, actually, stand up for P a little, saying i think his feelings for J are different, but obviously i didn't want to argue to much, for selfish reasons.