How am I happy all of a sudden? I don't understand how I'm happy right now, when every few minutes I see images of P and J which are really not comforting. Still, it seems best to capitalise on my happiness, so I have on my happy music. Who knows, perhaps if the mood lasts until I see J again things will once again be like they were. Not exactly the same, not everything, but things between the two of us (ie. me doting on him as my bestest (sometimes it's justified) and he still foolishly seeing me as some sort of role model). I don't actually believe the good mood will last tha long, it will no doubt eventually give in to my usual wistfulness (I'm sure I'm too young to spend most of my time being wistful.), but I can hope. And, in the mean time, grin. I do so like to grin. Which is unfortunate, as my teeth have many shades of yellow green and brown, but little white.