I have, in the past, been a little unfair to heterosexuals. I see now though, that just because they are different, they are not objects of ridicule. I have decided it is about time i took that back.

I have been far too eager to vast myself, as a member of a once hideously oppressed social group, as the victim. This is not so. Oh no. Most of the straight people i know (But lets be honest here, i'm obviously talking only of the male variety. Until recently girls have been to me a largely unknown breed, and i haven't had chance to form my prejudices about them.) Most of the straight people i know are perfectly lovely individuals, so much so that i am allowing two of them to read my blog. A, mentioned once, a very long time ago, and C, who has been my friend since the beginning of secondary school.

I have, recently, and i'm very ashamed of this, let these friendships slip rather a lot, in favour of the company of people i felt understood me better. I believe i have referred to this previously, coining on one occasion a phrase of which i am rather proud, "self-ghettoisation". I should hope the meaning is quite obvious. This has been going on for some time, notably under the guise of the Ace Crew. Perhaps it's demise was no bad thing. It is important that any social group does not isolate itself from society and then blame society for this and really that is sort of what we've been doing.

So i am rebuilding my bridges. I have been too eager to lump together my 'old' friends under this label of heterosexual, and have hence ignored the fact that they are among the best people i know. They would have to be, to have stuck by me since year seven. And they were all so brilliant about my being gay. (Apart from one incident where A tried a little too hard, asking "So... seen any nice lads recently?", a memory which will send me into hysterics for a long time to come, i hope. The sentiment was very nice, but less fabby was the blatant discomfort of the situation and even worse, the fact that i abhor this word "lad" and all its connotations.)

Perhaps i was so eager to reject them because, having known me as long as they had, my flaws were much more obvious to them. I had a chance to start again with a new group of people, with no idea of my arrogance and freakish delight in proving people wrong (This actually led to my being thoroughly embarassed many times.) and i seized it. This choice obviously did not bring me quite what i had expected, so i am hoping now that it is in some way reversible and that my old friends will accept me once again.

Not, of course that i am abandoning my new group, either. No, that would never do, to make up for rejecting one set of people my shunning another. I almost did that once, but not for these reasons. No, i love the Ace Crew and everyone connected and would not desert (I speak as if i have some sort of responsibilty to them, as they, in some way, need me. Not so.) them lightly. So, i shall be friends with them all and no doubt emerge much the richer for it.

Dear God what a pretentious post. I am very and extremely sorry.