I'm starting to get paranoid. I'm beginning to think i may actually be good looking. My evidence for this isn't the strongest, but it's better than "You could be good looking if you weren't so immensely fat" or however it was P originally phrased it. Last Friday i was in 'town', (It simply wouldn't do for a stranger to find this and know where i live. I have no idea why.) walking along, in a bit of a hurry, both because i was meant to be meetimg up with my friends and because the rain was really starting to get annoying. A few girls were sheltering on my right, and one of them called out "My mate fancies you." Something like that, at least. I, naturally, thought it was a joke. I looked at the girl who'd said it (I can't remember what she looked like, even from only a metre or two away. It was raining, so i'd taken off my glasses.) out of surprise, and tried to convey through only my eyebrows (I've a feeling i try say too much through my eyebrows. There's only so much you can do with any feature, especially ones that have been shaved off. (Do you not just love the way i hint at an amusing incident in my past?)) surprise, disbelief and the fact that nobody would fancy me, especially having seen me for only a few seconds, walking up the street. I worry now that if she had actually meant it (But surely she didn't!) i may have just come across as arrogant.

I would have, and in fact already had, dismissed this as nonsense and a joke, were it for not something another of my acquaintances said recently. This was a girl who i'd met over the internet, via an increasingly long chain of friends. She's a bisexual (No idea why i feel it neccessary to identify people through their sexuality, but apparently i do.) and really rather sweet. Anyway, it was drawn out somehow that she found me attractive. This was from a photo i'd sent. I didn't look particularly fat in it, but i was pulling my worst loonish grin and looked a complete fool. But even so, the compliment is very reassuring. However, i've simply no idea what to do if i turn out to be good looking. i shall have to wear my glasses at all times and wear my hair in its usual dull way.