"Mesopotanian is delerious from lack of sleep and overwhelmed by the sexy guy sitting in his room."

That's fairly unambiguous.

I want so badly to find out where i stand, but i have no idea how to without coming across as an utter freak and ruining any chance that some small part of me is clinging onto still. But his doesn't seem any longer like something i can just wait out. By this morning i'd already nearly convinced myself that it was all still going to be fine, we'd go out when i came back and then who knows? Now that looks less likely than ever.

And for another thing, even if we were still on, if he perhaps planned to wait and make some comparison between the two of us, how am i ever going to compete with 'overwhelmingly sexy'?

I really don't know how to handle this. I imagine i'll do my usual thing of bottling until i get roaring drunk, then absolutely put my foot in things and make a fool of myself.