And there we go, Persian is in a relationship.

I've felt worse. Other rejections, from boys who've shown less interest, have hurt more. Perhaps because this time was so gradual. Perhaps because the actual rejection hasn't come yet.

I don't intend to contact him now. There isn't much point. I have a fair idea now where i stand. Perhaps if he never gets in touch to call it off i'll ask why, but that sounds like it may lead to the depressing realisation that he'd never actually known my intentions.

Assuming that isn't the case, i'll actually be pretty annoyed if i don't get some explanation from him. Not that i begrudge him all this, (Well, obviously i do really, but i'm trying not to.) but he must have realised i'd see everything he put up on his facebook, so to parade all this under the nose of someone he knows is interesting, and knows believes he is too, seems a little cruel. Not that i'm vain enough to think it's actually malicious, but it's still a little thoughtless.

I think i may have a goth day tomorrow. This is possible now i finally have black nail varnish.

Sorry these posts are a little disjointed, but so am i.