My moods are a bit swingy right now. I can get really happy, but then I always come back to being really depressed. I was very happy on Saturday night, because a while ago I joined the scissor sisters forum, and I'd posted on there on Friday and told one of the nice people about everything. And then she was really nice and set up a thread to get people to give me hugs, and carried on being incredibly lovely for ages. And also on Saturday, someone else from the forum added me to their msn contacts and, after a couple of hours of being shocked by my completely virgin status ("you've never been kissed?!?") finally came to the conclusion that he'd like to kiss me, just to see what it was like. He said I'm cute even though I'm nerdy. I was very flattered. But that did'nt last.

On Sunday I started off in not too bad a mood, but it got worse. I had been supposed to be going out with my friends, but then I'd declined, because of general depression. But now I was happy, I felt able to go. Only they'd called it off. Felt kinda guilty about that. So nothing happened. Later, the best friend, L, added E to his MSN contacts. Actually, that might have been Saturday. Yes, I think it was, because on Sunday he discovered E had allowed him as a contact, but was not online. Current thinking holds, though, that E added him then blocked him. Grrr.

So this morning my terrible mood from last night had stayed, and remained for a while at school. It lifted, though, when I saw E. Back in school. That was nice. No idea why he was there, but I did my usual half stalking half trying to be seen by him thing. I'm so pathetic. Well, I'm getting bored and tired. Bye for now