Todays oral didnt go quite so well, i fear. didnt see E either. i dont think the oral went badly enough to lose me the marks i need (frankly im not even willing to consider the possibility) to get into my first choice university (which remains nameless) though.

Oh dear god, i cant believe i forgot this! i came out to my sister (R) last weekend! we stayed at my grandmas house up in yorkshire and the two of us were sharing a room. we were talking and she asked me (apparently she had never before thought this to be true, which i do find quite hard to believe. there was an edge to her voice as she asked) "why did you go to an all boys school, are you gay or something?" a remarkably dim question, really, but it gave me the opportunity id been waiting for ti say "yes i am". she yelled (well, it felt like that) out "are you really gay?" about five times, even when someone was in the bathroom, the room next door. i think she probably wasnt heard though, in the end. that or its just too uncomfortable a subject for the unwitting eavesdropper to broach. but noone seemed any diifferent the next day.

so there we go. R knows. we havent spoken about it since